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Any sports fans or former players will GREATLY appreciate this blog.  First let me set the stage.  It was a conference double header between cross town rivals that would decide the conference title.  Home needs to sweep to win the title.  Visitors with a split would win the title.  Last time they played, they split.  Visitors are ranked first in the state--mostly due to politics.  Home is ranked 12th in the state--mostly because no one respects their coach.  Home's starting lineup, the entire lineup, used to play for the parent of two of the Visitors players.  They no longer play together because that dad was a maniac that liked to talk about kids (11-12 year olds at this time) and call them vulgar names.  Home also has a player, one of the 9, that recently moved to Home's area from Visitor's area because of this same dad.  This player had tried to repeatedly give him the benefit of the doubt but eventually got fed up and missed her true friends.  So the tension couldn't have been any thicker.

Game one.  Bottom of 3rd inning.  Home's new player hits a solo homerun!  Home is up 1-0.  Bottom of the 4th inning, the Home's player that Visitor's coach said had a weak little hit during the last meeting, hits a solo homerun.  Home is up 2-0.  Top of the 5th, Visitor's go on a rally.  They score one and then their pitcher, a kid that is competing with Home's pitcher for a spot on a college team, hits a three run homer.  Visitors are up 4-2.  Bottom of the 7th, one out, Home's player that was told by the Visitor's dad that she couldn't hit well enough to play with him, hits a solo homerun.  Visitors still up 4-3.  Bottom of the 7th still with two outs and no one on.  First girl, walks.  Next girl, hits a shot to deep SS and beats the throw out at fist.  Next girl, walks.  Next girl, hits a shot to the 2nd base gap and scores the tying run.  Next girl, the newest player for Home's who hit a homerun early and has been swining like Mighty Casey, steps up to bat.  Everyone murmurs, I've never seen a walk off grand slam but we cheer for just a base hit.  First pitch--ball.  Well they cannot pitch around her or its game so they have to try to get her.  Next pitch, low and on the outside corner, the batter fouls it off.  Next pitch, high and inside, close to the zone but called a ball.  Next pitch, low and outside again for another foul ball.  2-2 count.  2 outs.  Bases loaded.  Next pitch, low and outside...SENT SAILING OVER THE RIGHT FIELD FENCE FOR A WALK OFF GRAND SLAM!  The crowd goes nuts, the moms are crying and the Visitor's team looks completely stunned!

Game two:  Visitors jump out to an early lead and are up 3-0 in the bottom of the 3rd.  The Home's girl that was told she couldn't hit well enough to play with the visitor's dad that hit a homerun in the first game gets up and hits another solo homerun.  Visitors still up 3-1.  4th inning Home strings together a few hits and scores another run.  Visitors still up 3-2.  Top of 5th, another rally by Visitors that scores 3 more runs.  Visitors up 6-2.  Top of 6th, visitors score one and are trying to rally when Home's centerfielder, a kid that was told by the Visitor's dad that she did not have a head for the game, guns the daughter of visitor's dad at the plate from deep center with a rocket to the Home's catcher who was told by visitor's dad that she wasn't good enough to catch.  The tag is easily placed, the girl is out and the inning ends.  Visitors up 7-2.  Top of 7th, visitors get a runner on who advances to 3rd on a completely bogus call by the umpire.  When the throw was made to 1st to get her out, it is high and goes into the dugout, they award her 3rd even though the rule states you get one base.  Next batter,  deep hit to center but the coach doesn't dare let another player get toasted at the plate so he holds her up.  Good thing because Visitor's centerfielder was ready to fire!  Home team gets out of it and goes to bat. 

First girl, the centerfielder, hits and beats the throw that goes into the dugout.  Does she get 3rd?  No.  They let her stay on 2nd even though it was identical to what just happened.  What could you do?  Next kid hits a shot to 3rd that bounces off her shoe and makes it too hard for SS to field and make a play.  Next girl (the one with two homeruns in game one) gets pitched inside and she sends it to the left field fence.  It hit the corner of the fence.  Home's centerfielder easily scores.  With runners on third and second the umpire comes in and calls the girl on second out.  Everyone was confused, there was no play made on the girl at second.  The umpires confer and say the batter passed the girl on first and is therefore out.  She did NOT pass the lead runner but what can you do?  One out.  Score is 7-3, runner on 3rd and a very angry crowd.  Next batter, the catcher, hits a shot to left field.  They LF throws home but that runner scores so they throw to 2nd to stop the other batter from advancing.  That runner, rounded first and went back to first as the SS throws to the 1st baseman.  The girl lowers her shoulder and tackles the runner to push her down and off the base with the ball.  They call the runner out.  The crowd goes ballistic because she was tackled!  But again, what can you do? The score is now 7-4 with two outs.  Next girl, the kid that hit a homerun in the first and second game, hits a shot to left field and gets to 2nd.  Next batter, a kid that was told by visitor's coach that she was too little to play, gets walked.  Runner on 1st & 2nd with two outs.  Next batter, the pitcher, gets up and hits a high pop fly to center field.  Drop it, drop it, drop it, we all whisper as our runners run and somehow SHE DROPPED IT!  This kid is practically a golden glove in the OF but she dropped it.  Runners on third and first.  Two outs.  7-5.  Next batter, the girl that was told she had a weak little hit, gets up.  Rips one to right field.  Both runners score and she advances to third on a play at home.  TIED GAME! 

Two outs. Winning run on first and Home's lead off batter, my daughter, is up to bat.  She walks up to her coach as the visiting team confers about what to do.  As she approaches the coach she is ear-to-ear smile.  "I feel really good coach."  She says.  Coach said then do your thing.  My kid is a natural lefty that hits well, bunts well and slaps.  Her first three at bats she went deep so the OF is back deep but they know she can drop a bunt or slap with the best of them so the infield is in a little tight.  LOTS of green between the OF and infield.  First pitch, low and outside for a ball.  Next pitch, fouled off straight back.  Next pitch, low and outside for another ball.  Next pitch, fouled off out of play.  Next pitch, fouled off again out of play and nearly hits the visitor's dad!  Mom is a nervous wreck, our entire bleacher and fan section is on their feet clapping in unison and yelling her name...well her nickname.  "C'mon V!  Let's go V!  You got this V!"  Can probably be heard for miles...well at least for blocks.  Next pitch--hard fast shot to no man's land in left field and the winning run easily scores!  The place goes nuts!!!!!!!

Home managed to get two come from behind with two out victories over their rivals Visitor!  You could NOT ask for a better night of ball and everyone, including some neutral fans that just came to watch what would undoubtedly be a good game, said it was the best night of softball they have ever seen!  I somehow managed to bruise my legs during the hoopla. I think when I was jumping up and down on the bleachers, I was hitting my legs on my bleacher seat but in the heat of the moment, that did not matter.

Bruised, hoarse and tired but still buzzing with excitement from watching my kid and kids I have known most of their life perform is AMAZING!  It is hard for me to even express how I feel.  All I can say is OUTSTANDING!  It was a magical night, a night that will live on in Home infamy as the night they came back TWICE with two outs to sweep their cross town rivals and take the conference title!  Known forever in Home history simply as THE NIGHT.  Where were you?

Thought of the day:
Sure winning isn't everything but it certainly is more fun than losing!

Strivng forward,
~E
 
 
I went to orientation with my daughter this week.  All year I have been as solid as a rock.  Not really cracking during the entire senior year.  Too happy to be sad at graduation even but before we left for orientation, the dam broke!  And it all started with going through pictures for her senior scrapbook.  I started looking at pics and could not believe it was time to watch her soar when I swear her egg just hatched!  The tears hit me at work one day so much so that I had to go home and sob for 30 minutes before I could head to the softball game.  Part of me didn't want to go to the game but I knew I couldn't/wouldn't miss.  After the good cry fest and a phone call to my bestie that keeps me grounded, I pulled myself together and went to the game.

Orientation went well.  She has an AWESOME room assignment that includes a private bath so she was happy about that...though I don't think she realizes she will actually have to clean the bathroom because unlike now it will not magically be clean when she gets home.  She even has a nice class schedule that will allow her to sleep in most days since she is NOT a morning person.  I was fine because I saw her continue to make wise choices so that helped me relax.  I even had a few people mistake me for an incoming college freshman so evidently I still look very young!  YEAH RIGHT!  Perhaps I don't look my age but I certainly look older than 18!

I returned home to face the dreaded senior scrapbook.  Whose idea was this thing anyway?  LOL!  It is a great idea but going through the pages, looking at the past, makes one very, very, VERY sad!  I felt like Lot's wife because I turned into a pillar of salty tears all because I looked back.  I've decided my focus needs to be more on where I am going and where she is headed than from where we have come.  Yes I will ALWAYS cherish those memories but I will not dwell on them when I know even greater times lie ahead.

Thought of the day:
Appreciate your past for what it made you become, enjoy today for the gift that it is and keep your eye on the future for the excitement, joy and peace it will bring!

Striving forward,
~E
 
 
This week I have had a very hard time focusing at work.  So much so that I seriously considered being tested for Adult ADD.  Today it FINALLY hit me what the problem is...it is FAR TOO QUIET in my office!  My floor is like a ghost town.  It is sparsely populated and those that are here are very quiet.  I am a person that must have a lot of noise going on in the background in order for me to focus.  I write at my best when I am listening to music in one ear, listening to my kids with the other, watching TV while conversing with the kids!  I have always been like that.  Someone that needs a lot of noise in order to focus.  So now as I am faced with eight weeks of silence.  Any suggestions on how I can bring on da noise?

Thought of the day:
It is better to...what should I have for dinner tonight since the kids are with their dad... I wonder if they got him anything for Father's Day...what did I get for Mother's Day...is that buzzing I hear just in my head...when do I have time to get a manicure....I need to start packing for my trip...God Bless you to the person that just sneezed...did someone just open a bag of licorice...I need to stop at the store and grab some for the game tonight...oh yeah dinner will be at the ball field so I guess pizza or nachos it is...what was I doing again?  Oh yeah thought of the day...too many random thoughts to narrow them down to a few words of wisdom.  :-)  BRING BACK THE NOISE!

Striving forward,
~E
 
Fels Naptha 06/14/2010
 
As you all know my daughter is a softball player.  This year her high school team got a new uniform that is MOSTLY WHITE!  Just enough maroon on the uniform so one cannot bleach them to clean them.  I was not thrilled when I heard the new uniforms were going to be white but I must admit they look AWESOME!  That is until you play two games on a rain soaked softball field.  Especially when your daughter is an outfielder who has to dive & slide for balls. 
Friday evening as we headed home with mud caked pants all I could think is these pants will NEVER be clean!  Seriously her knees looked black there was so much mud on them.  How on earth could I get these pants white again?  Too tired to address the problem that night, I just let the uniform sit. 
Saturday came and went and I neglected to even look at the uniform.  Sunday I return home from church with cleaning on my mind.  When I entered my daughter's room I see the uniform OH NO!  How had I forgotten about the mud stained uniform?  How had I let it sit for two days?  Now the stains REALLY won't come out!  Sighing deeply, I put the uniform in the tub to soak. 
A friend had given me a bar of laundry soap called Fels Naptha.  She said it would work to take out the stains.  At that time I thought it might work for normal stains but mud soaked pants that sat for two days?  I wasn't hopeful as I took out the bar of soap thinking  at least I could try. 
I scrubbed and I scrubbed.  I rinsed and I rinsed.  And I decided the muddy knees would just be stained knees.  I put the uniform in the washer on a short cold cycle so I could get an idea of how much of the stain was removed.  I took the pants out and it looked better but still stained. 
Hmm, that soap did better than I thought it would so  again soaked the pants in the tub to get them wet and then scrubbed and scrubbed.  Much to my amazement my scrubbing was working!!  The stains started to fade and then disappeared.  I put the pants back in the washer for a rinse and spin cycle.  Again, to see how much of the stain remained.  I pulled the pants out and all the stains were nearly gone.  I could have stopped there but I thought oh no I can get these things spotless. 
One more soaking, one more round of scrubbing and one more rinse/spin cycle.  I take the pants out and TA-DA--SPOTLESS!  I was so relieved.  Somehow I had gotten them cleaned.  I sent my daughter a text (she was with her dad) and said we need to stock up on Fels Naptha.  She asked if the pants were clean and I said practically spotless.  Nice :-) was her reply.  I said I believe you meant to say WOW or I love you!  So she said WOW! Nice, I love you...ha, ha, they all work!  By this time it was late, I was exhausted and ready for bed feeling likeI had accomplished much. 
Then it hit me, Fels Naptha is much like what Jesus does.  We come to him caked in mud, in shame, in guilt, in sin thinking there is NO WAY we could ever be clean again.  But The Lord applies a little Jesus to us, scrubs us with the word, rinses away the worldly and lo and behold before we even know it we are spotless again!  There's no sin, no guilt, no stain, no mud The Lord cannot remove when we fully give ourselves to Him and let Him scrub/rinse us clean! 
So if you find yourself with a pair of very muddy pants that need cleaning try Fels Naptha.  And when you find yourself with a muddy mess of a life, TRY JESUS!  His power is far greater than any laundry soap!  I HIGHLY recommend both!

Thought of the day:
There's no pain too great nor obstacle too big for my Jesus!

Striving forward,
~E
 
 
I try to be honest at all times.  Not rude, I can be polite about my honesty but you know if E tells you something she is speaking the truth.  Recently I had an encounter with someone who is more of an acquaintance then a friend but someone I like.  This person was making rude comments about my ex that were uncalled for and simply not true.  Perhaps I should have ignored it, after all he is my ex, but he is also not one to defend himself so I REALLY wanted to confront this person.  Cooler heads prevailed and my ex told me to let it go.  However rumors travel like wildfire so it got to the point where something had to be said.

This person asked to speak to my ex to clear the air and he asked me to come with him for moral support.  SILENT moral support.  So I went, they talked, it was a good talk though there were things that I would have said that he didn't.  The next day this person thanks me for coming by and even made a point to say how much they appreciated my honesty.  Well, I took that as an opening to really be honest about what I thought.  Again, I was very polite, I was not rude in anyway but I just told them like it was.

I felt SO MUCH BETTER and the person told me how much they REALLY appreciated and respected my honesty.  So that made me feel better too.  But what really made my day was seeing the outward change in this person.  Perhaps no one had ever told this person about how their mannerisms distanced them from the group because it was like night and day.  Instead of being closed off and borderline snobbish, this person smiled and greeted people.  This person went out of their way to be one of the group instead of an outsider. 

So today I talked to another member of the group that commented on how much better the attitude was.  This new person was impressed and thrilled that things had gotten better without even knowing that I had said something.

So because I was honest, one person no longer feels like an outsider and the rest of the group gladly welcomes the smiles, jokes and camaraderie.

Thought of the day:
Honesty may sting for a second but truly it is better to suffer a moment of uncomfortableness than a lifetime of misery.

Striving forward,
~E
 
Romans 8:28 05/28/2010
 
It's been awhile since I've blogged, I will try to do better about updating it weekly.  For all those wondering, I am doing well!  I have spent the last three months rediscovering E.  I forgot how strong, independent, funny, outgoing, caring, organized, beautiful, kind, compassionate, fun-loving, sexy, wonderful  and spiritually grounded she is!  Spending 18+ years constantly being told you are not good enough can do that to a person.  Makes you lose your self esteem and doubt your self worth.  But no more.  I know who I am, I like who I am and I will NOT let my light be shielded by anyone again.

I am still friends with my ex but we do not hang out and we are not as connected as we were.  I actually dabbled in dating him again but that lasted about three days before God started whipping bricks at my head for not heeding His Whisper!  OUCH, the bricks hurt but I needed them to knock some sense into my head.  LOL!!

Anyone not familiar with the verse listed above, look it up, it has become my motto.  All things will work together for the good of those that love The Lord and it is evident in my life!  Everyday God amazes me with His Mercy, Grace and Goodness!  Everyday He touches me in some way.  EVERYDAY!  When I start to waver or doubt, He is quick to show me the light and I am eager to follow.  Thank You God for always taking care of me, for always making a way when I do not see a way.  I am VERY grateful and willing to shout my love for You from the roof tops!!!! 

This weekend is my daughter's graduation party.  Hard to believe she is graduating already when she was just born yesterday!  Man how time flies.  I wish her well as my baby flaps her wings and flies the nest.  Spread your wings and soar little eagle.  May all your best dreams come true!!

Thought of the day:
Do not say the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon!

Striving forward,
E
 
 
Monday evening my daughter and I are casually chatting when she mentions to me that her dad left them Sunday night to pick up some lady at the airport.  She told me the name and said she only knew where he was going because she saw him texting her.  This made me VERY ANGRY.  Why?  Because my ex and I  had just had a conversation where he was adamant that no one was riding around with him...in MY car (since it is still in my name and I am the one still covering the insurance.)  So after dealing with the turmoil of knowing he is actively dating someone though he wants me to believe he isn't, I decided we are too close.  We workout together, we ride to the kids events together, we sit next to each other at these events, we have meals together, etc.  That is entirely too close.  How can I expect true love to enter when I am so involved with my ex?  I cannot.

Yesterday I told him I didn't want to be friends.  I didn't beat him down (though the list is a mile long as to why I wouldn't want to be his friend) but I said it is nothing specific or personal, I just have to do what I think is best for me.  Since then I have felt WONDERFUL!  The feeling of standing up for myself and actually taking care of me is outstanding and makes me wonder why I would want to experience the agony of being involved with him.  So thank you to all those who commented on my blog for the well wishes and encouragement.  It worked for I am doing well.

Thought of the day:
Shake off the cobwebs of despair and dance in the sunlight of happiness.~ Terri Lynn

Striving forward,
~E
 
 
Yesterday I found out my soon-to-be ex is dating again.  Though he says he does not have a "girlfriend" he is talking to someone.  Him being with someone else isn't anything new since he "dated" many while we were married but I truly do not know how I should respond to this information.

Part of me wonders why he has people "coming from out the wood works" to talk to him when my phone stays silent.  Part of me wonders how he treats her when he was such an arse to me.  Part of me is relieved hoping she will be a distraction for him and keep him from pestering me.  Part of me wonders what I will do if I run into them out together.  And part of me truly does not care.

I know that I am not ready to date because I need time to get myself together.  Time to build E up again before she can invite anyone into her life.  BUT it does make me wish I had the option to date.  I am not an envious person but I can't help but think WHY NOT ME?  Seems that I have much more to offer than he does yet, as stated earlier, my phone is silent.  (SIGH)

I'm going to shake off that negativiy (or at least try to) and focus on the knowledge that I know God has my back.  I know God has a greater love out there for me that will blow my mind with how wonderful he is.  I know this love will have me thanking God everyday for bringing him into my life.  And I know I am not ready to receive that love yet so once again I need to remain patient.

Thought of the day:
Good things come to those who wait; patience is a virtue; he that have patience can have what he will; and every other cliche on patience that says E BE STILL AND LET GOD WORK!!

Striving forward
~E
 
 
My daugther turned 18 on Sunday.  I am the mother of an adult daughter.  It still has not sunk in.  An adult child.  I have an adult child.  How am I possibly old enough to have an adult child, first of all.  And how could she already be 18 when I swear just yesterday she was starting school?  Time flies by so quickly it is utterly amazing!  I mean absolutely AMAZING.
As shocking as it is that she is 18, I am proud to say she seems to be a very well put together child.  She has earned a full academic ride to the state university.  She is (or will be) a four year varsity letter winner in two sports.  She volunteers, she mentors, she works TWO jobs and she somehow manages to balance it all.  I'm not sure how she does all she does and does it so well but I thank God everyday for blessing me with such a wonderful child!!

Thought of the day:
Appreciate and enjoy each moment you have for soon those moments will be few and far between.

Striving on,
~E
 
Happy New Year 01/01/2010
 
It's January 1st, the start of a new year.  A time when most reflect on what happened in the past and how they will make the future better.  I actually started one of my goals for 2010 (weight loss) in October of 2009.  However, I have recently added a personal trainer to help me reach my goals.  During my initial session, body fat was measured and as it turns out my goal of weighing 140 lbs is unrealistic.  According to my body fat measurments, if I lost every ounce of fat on my body, I would weigh 140 lbs.  I certainly cannot have 0% body fat so I have adjusted my goals.  It was good for me to see that I wasn't in as bad of shape as I thought. 

So to everyone, here's to a wonderful new year that is full of lots of love, peace, happiness, joy and wealth!

Striving on,
~E