Shaking the cobwebs off

Monday evening my daughter and I are casually chatting when she mentions to me that her dad left them Sunday night to pick up some lady at the airport.  She told me the name and said she only knew where he was going because she saw him texting her.  This made me VERY ANGRY.  Why?  Because my ex and I  had just had a conversation where he was adamant that no one was riding around with him...in MY car (since it is still in my name and I am the one still covering the insurance.)  So after dealing with the turmoil of knowing he is actively dating someone though he wants me to believe he isn't, I decided we are too close.  We workout together, we ride to the kids events together, we sit next to each other at these events, we have meals together, etc.  That is entirely too close.  How can I expect true love to enter when I am so involved with my ex?  I cannot.

Yesterday I told him I didn't want to be friends.  I didn't beat him down (though the list is a mile long as to why I wouldn't want to be his friend) but I said it is nothing specific or personal, I just have to do what I think is best for me.  Since then I have felt WONDERFUL!  The feeling of standing up for myself and actually taking care of me is outstanding and makes me wonder why I would want to experience the agony of being involved with him.  So thank you to all those who commented on my blog for the well wishes and encouragement.  It worked for I am doing well.

Thought of the day:
Shake off the cobwebs of despair and dance in the sunlight of happiness.~ Terri Lynn

Striving forward,
~E